Jealously?Hurt?

Oh gosh...
Firstly.
Maybe it's just a teeny weeny bit of jealously?
Who knows?
Darn,I hope not.
It's not supposed to be that way.
It just wasn't.

Secondly.
It hurts inside now.Alot.
I really regret all the stupid things I did.
Obviously what I did was,arrghhh :K
It's so not worth it lah,seriously.
I'm holding it back.
Can I not be in the baichi family anymore?

You can't kick me down
I'm already on the ground
No you can't, but you couldn't catch me anyhow
Blue skies, but the sun isn't coming out, no
Today is like I'm under a heavy cloud
And I feel so alive
I can't help myself
Don't you realize?
That I just wanna scream and lose control
Throw my hands up and let it go
Forget about everything and run away, yeah
I just wanna fall and lose myself
Laughing so hard it hurts like hell
Forget about everything and run away, yeah.

I won't cry.
Yes.